My Depressive Episodes

Immense pain and loneliness. Floods of tears and hyperventilation. Thoughts of suicide. Numbness. Thoughts of suicide.

Help

I'm scaring myself. I'm scared of myself. Yesterday, I searched up where to buy guns.

The thoughts aren't going away. I'm scared I'm going to actually shoot myself in the head one day. It's not getting better. I'm not getting better. I'm trapped and stuck in the past, in the dark. I can't get out. I'm tired. I want to get out. I can't live in this cage anymore. I'm so close to giving up. I'm so tired. I'm so so tired. And hurt. And in so much pain. I'm in so much pain.